I’m sorry I’m an Idiot!

dudushewa01 • June 30, 2018

I had left the house that morning refusing to pray together with my husband as we would usually do. We had a major fight the night before and none of us was ready to apologise. However, on getting to work, I became so uneasy. I couldn’t concentrate. Something was not right.

It wasn’t the first time we would have a quarrel; in fact, we’ve had more than I could count. But this uneasiness, I couldn’t seem to understand. I was pretty sure it was not about the fight, there was something more but I could not figure it out.

I felt the urge to talk to him about this strange feeling so we could pray about it but… I mean, we’re still fighting and I was not ready to apologise. I mean, it takes a lot for me to apologise to him.

I summoned the courage to call him during my lunch break but he didn’t pick up. I then sent him a message to check up on him, to which he didn’t reply. I expected that anyway, my husband would refuse to talk to me for days until I apologised. So, I decided I would apologise that night and we would pray about this strange yet stubborn feeling together.

I got back home that evening still feeling uneasy, I made dinner and put the kids to bed. Just as I was about to relax, I heard my phone ring. On seeing it was my husband calling, I was so happy. I thought to myself, “Maybe he wasn’t that angry after all” thinking he was calling to let me know he was almost home as usual.

“Hello Love” I said as I picked up the call. “Hello, hello, is this John’s wife?” the caller on the other end asked. “Yes”, I replied quickly as I suddenly became really afraid. “Where’s my husband, what happened to my husband?” “He was involved in a ghastly motor accident, we are rushing him now to the General Hospital, please join us there as soon as possible” and the caller hung up. I was perplexed, confused, scared. I could literally feel my heart trying to escape out of my chest. Tears rolling d own my cheeks uncontrollably. Thoughts of horror flooded my mind. I hurriedly carried the kids into the car and zoomed off to the general hospital weeping and praying for my husband not to die!

On getting to the hospital, I heard the news. My worst fear had just happened! My husband of 7 years gave up the ghost before he was brought to the hospital. I almost ran mad! No it is not possible! I wish we didn’t have the fight last night. I wish I had apologised. I wish we had prayed. I wish he picked my calls earlier. I wish I prayed. The source of my strange uneasiness suddenly jumped out at me. My husband was no more!

Dear reader, life is too short to live like Tom and Jerry. Your spouse will offend you; you too will offend your spouse, many times unintentionally. It is so easy to get caught up in the offense and hold grudges. This creates an opportunity for the devil to feast on your marriage. When you have done wrong, swallow your pride and admit your fault by apologising and moving on. If the other person is not willing to apologise, for your sanity and most importantly to make Heaven, let go and move on. Enjoy your marriage, enjoy your spouse, pray together, don’t let misunderstandings linger.

If John and his wife were in good terms that morning, they would have prayed together, maybe just maybe the accident would have been averted.

This reminds me of the recent fire incident that happened in Lagos, Nigeria claiming several lives. Many of whom were returning home from school and work. So many evils are happening all around the world. No one knows tomorrow except God who owns tomorrow. You do not know when you will breathe your last breath. Why don’t you surrender your life to Him who can grant you life after the life here on Earth? Accept Jesus into your life today and let Him give you peace in the midst of this stormy world we live in. If you wish to accept Him into your life, say this prayer genuinely:

Lord Jesus, please forgive me of my sins, I accept you into my life to be my Lord and Saviour, write my name in the Book of Life, and help me to make Heaven my home some day in Jesus name. Amen.
If you have said this prayer, congratulations! You are now born again. Please find a Bible believing church where you can learn more about God and His ways.
God bless you!

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